The unoccasioned origin of life, the month-long nurishments from creamy cookies, if there is something else that could count as a direct reason for writing a new piece, that would be the onerousness of staying-alone.
  Of the many things I wanted to confess, the severest is that I'm not a proper rule-follower. Once in this summer vacation I caught on a Japanese TV sitcom called <Dragon Zakura>. A group of grade-E students are instructed under a specially organized team of teachers to secure their admittance in Tokyo University. A conclusive speech by the team of teachers after one of the mock-exams contains these strikingly illuminating lines,
  "Rule-followers are the type of person TU wanted...and it is that kind of people who is, in most cases, simultaneously creative and ingenious."
  It is quite the truth. To surpass rules, you must make them true to you first(adapted from the sayings of Batman Begins--to overcome fear, you must become fear itself). This maybe hard to follow since most of the rules are not explicitly phrased and seems opaque in our inherent knowledge.
  前两天在电视上看到的某个答题节目，“天篷元帅和猪八戒是不是同一个人，请聪明的小朋友发送答案到...”，看了以后十分无奈。首先天篷元帅和猪八戒大概都不能算作普通意义上的人~而且即使普遍来说它们可以算人，判断两者是不是同一个人的标准(rules)又是什么？单从外表来看，两者肯定是大相径庭，那么可以说它们不是同一个人；若从意识角度来判断，他们大概可以算作同一个人，因为至少它们都享有一段在天庭的经历，这段经历是相同的。但是，跳出这愈辩愈繁的圈子(stop pretending that I'm paranoid or schizophrenic)，从“聪明的小朋友”的观点来看，它们肯定是同一个人。
  This is a rather simple case to show that I'm not a proper rule-follower, and one which, fortunately, the right answer is accessible to me. However, things are far less tangible when dealing with more advanced challenges like a certain exam in the college years or questions to be orally answered. I would stuck in some of the self-imagined detours and get heavily astray, even though the answers are completely within my grasp.
  Besides, distraction is my next harshest enemy in concentration, like when reading. Even though it truly brought me epiphanies from a novel combination in my repertoire of knowledge, for whatever kind it may be, it breaks the line of reasoning from the rulemakers, who, in this case, is the author of the book. What's worse, it could happen at any time, even in exams. This does affect my responses to the questions and I would, therefore, more often than not, skate over the main issue that are required to address and hunt down the things just conceived like crazy(like arcing in the brain). Similar things can happen whether in situation critical or daily routines, like once-in-a-lifetime exams, cycling, etc. I easily got stuck by an attractor, in the theory of chaos.

  So I decide to venture into Dumbfoundland, where I expect to come upon sth that truly suits me, or more specifically, my LOGIC.